My Neurosis

I like to think that by nature I’m not a jealous person; I’m not an anxious, or needy person. I don’t get stressed out or annoyed if I call or text someone and they don’t respond within 10 or 15 minutes… or even a few hours. I understand that people have lives, things are going on, or maybe… someone just DOESN’T want to talk to me at that particular moment (or ever… for that matter). And that’s OK! My biggest pet peeve is when someone sends me a text that says “What’s up?” and then sends me a follow up text five minutes later that simply says “??”. Fuck off already! I’ll get to you when I get to you! I’m pretty much attached to my phone when I want to be… so if I’m not answering, there’s most likely a reason. And continuing to text me shit like that… just irritates me.

Having said that… some days I feel like the internet is trying to make me neurotic! I hate Facebook and BBM and all the dumb things that tell you if someone has or hasn’t looked at the last thing you said. I hate to be that person. Suddenly I’ve been chatting with someone for a while, and they stop answering. After ten minutes, I look and think “Oh… they haven’t seen my last message.” No big deal! But then… I can’t help myself. Every ten minutes for the next hour (or two), I’m now checking to see if they’ve looked at it!

If that option was not there… I wouldn’t even be aware of it. I would move on and carry on. I might think about it once in a while… but I am definitely not a person who would send a follow-up of any sort anyway. So… why do I care so much?

It makes me want to kick my OWN ass! LOL. And whoever invented this dumb shit!



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